Through the years
Superhero

I come when you call, I am an ear when you need to rant, I am a shoulder when you need to rest, I a teddy bear when you need comfort, I will love you when you need love. I can be everything for you, but… Can you be that for me? Will you come when I call? Will you listen when I talk? Will you let me rest on your shoulder? Will you be there to comfort me? Will you love me when I need love? The thing about being a superhero is that there is no one there to be those things for you. You solve people’s problems but not your own. Your the shoulder they cry on, but you can’t show your tears. You are there strength, but can’t show your weakness. You can give them love, but you can’t ever receive it. It’s a vicious cycle. It’s a lonely life. But that’s something I have to live with

cailahjadyn:

toinfinityandabroad:


Hey this is really true and see it will work for you too
If U were born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month U r number 1….If U were born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then U r number 2…If U were born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then U r number 3…If U were born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then U r number 4…If U were born on the 5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then U r number 5…If U were born on the 6th, 15th, 24th of any month then U r number 6…If U were born on the 7th, 16th, 25th of any month then U r number 7…If U were born on the 8th,17th,26th of any month then U r number 8…If U were born on the 9th,18th,27th of any month then U r number 9…Number 1You are smart, straight talking, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest,Jealous on competing basis, kind hearted, angry, friendly, authorities, Famous person… always want to be and regarded as first on people position, they are often like to be independent, will never be under others, self confident people!You are most likely to fall in love in the younger age, but will get marry when you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite viewsAnd you are most likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future.If you are guy you will be very popular that everybody will have mental attraction and respect at you. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of the parliament because you are positive and well talented in numerous issues!! But in your life you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you & your name down. This is undercover!! Coz of your smart behavior you will be hated by some people too…Your family life is very cool, you will have a very nice partner & wonderful children… You are pioneer, independent & original…Your best match is 4,6,8 good match is 3,5,7 !!!note: if u dont reblog bad luck for 10 years it true please dont ignoreNumber 2No matter what, you will be loved by every one coz your ruler is the moon and every one loves the Moon. Well.. You are a person who day dream a lot, you have very low-self confidence, you need back up for every move in your life, you are very much unpredictable. Means you do change according to time and circumstances, kind a selfish, have a very strong sense of musical, artistic talent, verbal communication.Your attitudes are like the Moon, comes to gloom and fade away so everybody can expect changes in you. You can be a next Mahatma Gandhi who does peace love or you can be a Hitler who wants to destroy the man kind and peace (I mean in the community and your own home).If you really have a deep thought about your own believe in God you can feel the difference which will make you stronger! Most of the time your words are a kind of would be happening true! So without any knowledge you can predict the situation. You will become poets, writers, any Artistic business people!You are not strong in love, so you will be there and here till you get marry.. If U r a girl you will be a responsible woman in the whole family. If U r a man you will involve in fights & arguments in the family or Vice-versa. Means you will sacrifice your life for the goodness sake of Your family…You are gentle , intuitive with a broad vision, a power behind the scenes, well balanced People!!!Your best match is 2 ,5 ,9 no other people can put up with you !!!note: if u dont reblog bad luck for 10 years it true please dont ignoreNumber 3You are a person of hard hearted, selfish most of the times, religious, loves to climb up in your life. You always tend to have lots of problems within your family in the early stages but you will put up with everything.. You have the strong word power, pretty happy face.. So wherever you go always you have got what you wanted!!! And from the birth always wanted to work hard in order to achieve something.. You will not get anything without hardwork! When you reach a man/ woman age you want other younger once to listen to you because you want younger people to respect people older than them. You do set so many examples to others.Generally you are not a cool person. It’s not easy thing dealing with you. A tough player you are! But once you like someone’s attitude then here you go, what can I say? It will be a lasting friendship. You always have respect from others.Your life seems to have lots of worries and problems but sure they won’t be long.. you will always have brilliant kids!!! You love the money a bit too much so temptation will push you to endless trying and trying.. If you are a guy then it’s over. Looking after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being generous and kind (except 21st born men). And number 3s you willbe such an example of how to be in the culture & life!!! If you are girl then you have good character and culture & hardworking attitude. You always follow.You are a freedom lover, creative, ambition focused, a person who brings beauty , hope & joy to this world!!!Your best match 6 ,9. Good match 1 ,3 ,5 !!!note: if u dont reblog bad luck for 10 years it true please dont ignoreNumber 4You are very stubborn too, very hard working but unlucky in important matters in life, very cool, helpful, you have rough word power.. Might put lots of people away from you, you may cause nuisance to others if you are a man, and you often understands others and their problems well. If you are a girl you are very good with studies and arts. If you are a guy you spend most of the time after girl friends (almost) at times, you will have sort of too much fun life with mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and get away with their life and you will become empty handed and don’t know what to do… So be careful!! You love to spend anyway!!!Your good will is you are always there to help family and friends. Tell you what you people are little gem! s, specially the girls.. You always fall in love in younger age as well. You often live with disappointments, for an example you have got a degree in some thing… but you will be unemployed.. or will do very ordinary jobs.But you will take care of your family very well…All you need to be careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart. And beware of your relations too..You are radical, patient, persistent,a bit old-fashioned, you live with foundation & order…Your best Match 1, 8. Good match 5 ,6 , 7 !!!note: if u dont reblog bad luck for 10 years it true please dont ignoreNumber 5You are very popular within the community, you can get things done by just chatting..to even enemies! You have a pretty good business mind, you are often have no-idea what is today is like, or tomorrow is like, you are a person who does anything when your head thinks “lets do this”. You will be famous if you open up a business, get involve in share dealings, music etc.. Very popular with sense of humor ,you are the one your friends and families will always ask for help, and you are the one actually get money on credit and help your friends. You will have more than 1 relationship, but when u get settle down you will be a bit selfish anyway. Coz your other half will have a pretty good amount of control in you, be careful! You tend to go for other relationships! Contacts even you are married at times ‘coz your popularity..You are someone who get along with anyone coz the number 5 is the middle number.. Changes & freedom lovers you are! You are an explorer with magic on your face. You learn your life through experience and it’s your best teacher!!!Your best match 1 ,2 ,9. Good match 6 ,8 !!!note: if u dont reblog bad luck for 10 years it true please dont ignoreNumber 6Ooopppss..you are born to enjoy.. You don’t care about others. I mean you are always want to enjoy your life time, you are a person.. You will be very good in either education or work wise or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people who you think are nice), very beautiful girls and guys, popular and more than lucky with anything in your lives. All the goodness does come with you. Your mind and body is just made perfect for love.You are lovable by any other numbers. But if you are a number 6 man, you will experience kind of looks from most girls and will involve in more than few relationships until you get married. If you are girl, most of you will get marry/engaged early. You are a caring person towards your family & friends .If you miss the half-way mark then you are about to suffer physically and mentally. Generally you will lead a very good inner-home happiness with nothing short of. You are a person of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and after all you can heal this world wounds to make peace for every life coz you have the great power of caring talent to make this world of love one step further…Your best match 1, 6, 9. Good match 4, 5 !!!note: if u dont reblog bad luck for 10 years it true please dont ignoreNumber 7You have got the attraction to anyone out there, you are realistic, very confident, happy, such a talented individual with your education, music, arts, singing, and most importantly acting too. You have real problems with bad temper! If you are a girl, you are popular with the subjects listed above.You give up things for your parents. I mean you value your family status a lot, you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls, you are a very talented too. Most of the number 7s face lots of problems with their marriage life.Only a very few are happy. You have everything in your life, but still always number 7s have some sort of unfullfilness, such worries all their lifetime.It’s probably the Lord given you all sort of over the standard humans talents and you are about to suffer in family life. So you need to get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don’t, then you might end-up single. So take care with this issue, ok?You are wonderful, friendly, artistic, happy person.. You are born to contribute lots to this world!!!Your best match is 2. Good matches are 1,4 !!!note: if u dont reblog bad luck for 10 years it true please dont ignoreNumber 8You are a very strong personality, there’s no one out there will understand you. You are very good at pointing your finger at some thing and say “this is what”.You are more likely to suffer from the early ages. I mean poverty. If your times are not good you might lose either of your parent and end up looking after your entire family. You often suffer all the way in life.The problems will not allow you to study further, but you will learn the life in a very practical way. You are the one who will fight for justice and may die in the war too. You are normally very reserved with handful of friends and most of the time live life lonely and always prepared to help others.Well. once you get married (which is often late) then your bad lucks will go away a bit and you! u become safe. You will face un-expected problems such as :the error, government, poisonous animals, accidents.You are some one with great discipline, persistence, courage, strength which will take you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter!Your Best match 1 ,4, 8. Good match 5 !!!note: if u dont reblog bad luck for 10 years it true please dont ignoreNumber 9Hey…you guys are the incompatibles people in the world. You are so strong, physically and mentally… You are often have big-aims. You will work hard and hard to get there. Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will have fighting life.. But when you achieve what you have done, it’s always a big task you have done! You are so much respected in the community, you are a person who can make a challenge and successfully finish the matter off.You are very naughty in your younger age, often beaten up by your parents and involve in fights and you seemed to have lots of injuries in your life time. But when u grow you become calm and macho type.Love is not an easy matter for you. You are good in engineering or banking jobs coz people always trust you.Your family life is very good, but will have worries over your children.Your such qualities are humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate.You are born to achieve targets and serve every one all equally without any prejudice.You are totally a role model to anybody in the world for a great inspiration.Your Best match 3, 5, 6, 9. Good match 2
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NUMEROLOGYYY

Reblogging because this was freaking accurate. Holy. WHUT.

cailahjadyn:

toinfinityandabroad:

Hey this is really true and see it will work for you too


If U were born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, 28th of any month U r number 1….

If U were born on the 2nd, 11th, 20th, 29th of any month then U r number 2…

If U were born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, 30th of any month then U r number 3…

If U were born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, 31st of any month then U r number 4…

If U were born on the 5th, 14th, 23rd of any month then U r number 5…

If U were born on the 6th, 15th, 24th of any month then U r number 6…

If U were born on the 7th, 16th, 25th of any month then U r number 7…

If U were born on the 8th,17th,26th of any month then U r number 8…

If U were born on the 9th,18th,27th of any month then U r number 9…



Number 1

You are smart, straight talking, funny, stubborn, hardworking, honest,Jealous on competing basis, kind hearted, angry, friendly, authorities, Famous person… always want to be and regarded as first on people position, they are often like to be independent, will never be under others, self confident people!

You are most likely to fall in love in the younger age, but will get marry when you mature! You are likely to have problems with people who have opposite views
And you are most likely to take revenge over your enemies in a long time basis. You are a spender, but you will have a good profession in the future.

If you are guy you will be very popular that everybody will have mental attraction and respect at you. You can go anywhere from the local shop to the heart of the parliament because you are positive and well talented in numerous issues!! But in your life you will always have some people who will work hard to bring you & your name down. This is undercover!! Coz of your smart behavior you will be hated by some people too…

Your family life is very cool, you will have a very nice partner & wonderful children… You are pioneer, independent & original…

Your best match is 4,6,8 good match is 3,5,7 !!!

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Number 2

No matter what, you will be loved by every one coz your ruler is the moon and every one loves the Moon. Well.. You are a person who day dream a lot, you have very low-self confidence, you need back up for every move in your life, you are very much unpredictable. Means you do change according to time and circumstances, kind a selfish, have a very strong sense of musical, artistic talent, verbal communication.

Your attitudes are like the Moon, comes to gloom and fade away so everybody can expect changes in you. You can be a next Mahatma Gandhi who does peace love or you can be a Hitler who wants to destroy the man kind and peace (I mean in the community and your own home).

If you really have a deep thought about your own believe in God you can feel the difference which will make you stronger! Most of the time your words are a kind of would be happening true! So without any knowledge you can predict the situation. You will become poets, writers, any Artistic business people!

You are not strong in love, so you will be there and here till you get marry.. If U r a girl you will be a responsible woman in the whole family. If U r a man you will involve in fights & arguments in the family or Vice-versa. Means you will sacrifice your life for the goodness sake of Your family…You are gentle , intuitive with a broad vision, a power behind the scenes, well balanced People!!!

Your best match is 2 ,5 ,9 no other people can put up with you !!!

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Number 3

You are a person of hard hearted, selfish most of the times, religious, loves to climb up in your life. You always tend to have lots of problems within your family in the early stages but you will put up with everything.. You have the strong word power, pretty happy face.. So wherever you go always you have got what you wanted!!! And from the birth always wanted to work hard in order to achieve something.. You will not get anything without hardwork! When you reach a man/ woman age you want other younger once to listen to you because you want younger people to respect people older than them. You do set so many examples to others.

Generally you are not a cool person. It’s not easy thing dealing with you. A tough player you are! But once you like someone’s attitude then here you go, what can I say? It will be a lasting friendship. You always have respect from others.

Your life seems to have lots of worries and problems but sure they won’t be long.. you will always have brilliant kids!!! You love the money a bit too much so temptation will push you to endless trying and trying.. If you are a guy then it’s over. Looking after your family and help friends, so you will spend a life time just being generous and kind (except 21st born men). And number 3s you will
be such an example of how to be in the culture & life!!! If you are girl then you have good character and culture & hardworking attitude. You always follow.

You are a freedom lover, creative, ambition focused, a person who brings beauty , hope & joy to this world!!!

Your best match 6 ,9. Good match 1 ,3 ,5 !!!

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Number 4

You are very stubborn too, very hard working but unlucky in important matters in life, very cool, helpful, you have rough word power.. Might put lots of people away from you, you may cause nuisance to others if you are a man, and you often understands others and their problems well. If you are a girl you are very good with studies and arts. If you are a guy you spend most of the time after girl friends (almost) at times, you will have sort of too much fun life with mates & girls. Your friends will spend your time & money and get away with their life and you will become empty handed and don’t know what to do… So be careful!! You love to spend anyway!!!

Your good will is you are always there to help family and friends. Tell you what you people are little gem! s, specially the girls.. You always fall in love in younger age as well. You often live with disappointments, for an example you have got a degree in some thing… but you will be unemployed.. or will do very ordinary jobs.

But you will take care of your family very well…All you need to be careful of people who will take advantage of your kind heart. And beware of your relations too..

You are radical, patient, persistent,a bit old-fashioned, you live with foundation & order…

Your best Match 1, 8. Good match 5 ,6 , 7 !!!

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Number 5

You are very popular within the community, you can get things done by just chatting..to even enemies! You have a pretty good business mind, you are often have no-idea what is today is like, or tomorrow is like, you are a person who does anything when your head thinks “lets do this”. You will be famous if you open up a business, get involve in share dealings, music etc.. Very popular with sense of humor ,you are the one your friends and families will always ask for help, and you are the one actually get money on credit and help your friends. You will have more than 1 relationship, but when u get settle down you will be a bit selfish anyway. Coz your other half will have a pretty good amount of control in you, be careful! You tend to go for other relationships! Contacts even you are married at times ‘coz your popularity..

You are someone who get along with anyone coz the number 5 is the middle number.. Changes & freedom lovers you are! You are an explorer with magic on your face. You learn your life through experience and it’s your best teacher!!!

Your best match 1 ,2 ,9. Good match 6 ,8 !!!

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Number 6

Ooopppss..you are born to enjoy.. You don’t care about others. I mean you are always want to enjoy your life time, you are a person.. You will be very good in either education or work wise or business management! You are talented, kind (but with only people who you think are nice), very beautiful girls and guys, popular and more than lucky with anything in your lives. All the goodness does come with you. Your mind and body is just made perfect for love.

You are lovable by any other numbers. But if you are a number 6 man, you will experience kind of looks from most girls and will involve in more than few relationships until you get married. If you are girl, most of you will get marry/engaged early. You are a caring person towards your family & friends .

If you miss the half-way mark then you are about to suffer physically and mentally. Generally you will lead a very good inner-home happiness with nothing short of. You are a person of compassion, comfort & fairness, domestic responsibility, good judgment, and after all you can heal this world wounds to make peace for every life coz you have the great power of caring talent to make this world of love one step further…

Your best match 1, 6, 9. Good match 4, 5 !!!
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Number 7

You have got the attraction to anyone out there, you are realistic, very confident, happy, such a talented individual with your education, music, arts, singing, and most importantly acting too. You have real problems with bad temper! If you are a girl, you are popular with the subjects listed above.

You give up things for your parents. I mean you value your family status a lot, you will be in the top rank when you reach a certain age. If you are a guy you are popular with girls, you are a very talented too. Most of the number 7s face lots of problems with their marriage life.

Only a very few are happy. You have everything in your life, but still always number 7s have some sort of unfullfilness, such worries all their lifetime.

It’s probably the Lord given you all sort of over the standard humans talents and you are about to suffer in family life. So you need to get ready looking for a partner rather than waiting. If you don’t, then you might end-up single. So take care with this issue, ok?

You are wonderful, friendly, artistic, happy person.. You are born to contribute lots to this world!!!

Your best match is 2. Good matches are 1,4 !!!
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Number 8

You are a very strong personality, there’s no one out there will understand you. You are very good at pointing your finger at some thing and say “this is what”.
You are more likely to suffer from the early ages. I mean poverty. If your times are not good you might lose either of your parent and end up looking after your entire family. You often suffer all the way in life.

The problems will not allow you to study further, but you will learn the life in a very practical way. You are the one who will fight for justice and may die in the war too. You are normally very reserved with handful of friends and most of the time live life lonely and always prepared to help others.

Well. once you get married (which is often late) then your bad lucks will go away a bit and you! u become safe. You will face un-expected problems such as :
the error, government, poisonous animals, accidents.

You are some one with great discipline, persistence, courage, strength which will take you to success. You are a great part of a family team. You are a fighter!

Your Best match 1 ,4, 8. Good match 5 !!!
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Number 9

Hey…you guys are the incompatibles people in the world. You are so strong, physically and mentally… You are often have big-aims. You will work hard and hard to get there. Normally you suffer in the early age from family problems and generally you will have fighting life.. But when you achieve what you have done, it’s always a big task you have done! You are so much respected in the community, you are a person who can make a challenge and successfully finish the matter off.

You are very naughty in your younger age, often beaten up by your parents and involve in fights and you seemed to have lots of injuries in your life time. But when u grow you become calm and macho type.

Love is not an easy matter for you. You are good in engineering or banking jobs coz people always trust you.

Your family life is very good, but will have worries over your children.

Your such qualities are humanitarian, patient, very wise & compassionate.

You are born to achieve targets and serve every one all equally without any prejudice.

You are totally a role model to anybody in the world for a great inspiration.

Your Best match 3, 5, 6, 9. Good match 2

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NUMEROLOGYYY

Reblogging because this was freaking accurate. Holy. WHUT.

feeling geeky

feeling geeky

Better

I have to stop doing this to myself. I have to learn that i am a good man anf i deserve good things. I have to stop fall ing for girls that are always taken emotionally and physically. I find myself destorying my soul and my body so that i dnt have to feel. I tend to ask God from time to time to take these feeling, thoughts and notions of love and romance out of my life. I just end up being disappointed.

Alone/strong

Its funny how people consider being alone as sad, pathetic, and socially awkward. People made to think having a gf/bf means you have everything and stable. But my theroy is being alone is a good thing. It just mean that you are strong and dont have to lean on someone else. But there is a price you pay when you are alone. And thats the real test of how strong you are. Being able to hide ur pain deep with a mask. I guess thats one of the benefits of having someone. But its also a curse cause ur expose to pain. And being exposed to the pain means destruction of ur self. Then you find ur self tryin to figure out where to pick up the pieces of ur being. So its best to be alone cause you never have to feel pain. And the curse of being alone is that is that you will never feel anything

Lifes plan?

This past two days i have been house sitting for my manager. So after the couple of min of walking buster i find myself sitting in a recliner watching romantic movies on a big screen in this tiny apartment for one with a dog at my feet. And all i can really think about is this a forshadow of wuts to come if i continue my path? But the question in mind right now is wut path is gonna lead me here. Is it the path that is career drive or the choice of not wanting love in my life? I am slowly realizing that these two paths are one in the same and that this is a reality and there is no stopping it. I guess thats wut i hav coming to me anyway i guess.

Made not born

It is strange to think that wen it comes to love, it is men who are catagorized as thought less, forgetful and heartless. The thing is we are not those things. we do remember everything, we are thoughtful, and most importantly we know love. You may ask give proof, so here is my evidence. I can still remember my one month anneversary with my first girlfriend, it was november 15 2005. We were both freshmen in high school. I had barely turned 15 and she was 14. When i saw her that morning i told her there was 2 parts of my gift to her. The first part was a old heart shaped locket, and i told her to meet me somewhere private for the second part. And no it is not what you think. So at lunch i had her meet me in an empty hallway. So as soon as she showed, i pulled out speakers with my ipod and play all my life by kci and jojo and i asked her to dance. So have i proven my self yet? If not let me tell more so you might actually understand where i am goin with this blog. December 13 she breaks up with me says that we are not working out. 2 days before our second anneversary. Beginning of sophomore year i started to have feeling for this close friend i have known since pre k and i am just realizing these feelings now. I tell her about those feelings she doesnt talk to me for entire year. August 2008 my 18 bday change plans so that i could spend my 18 bday with a special girl and what does she do, she hangs with my best friend the entire time. Fast foward to the end of senior year, the close friend that i had feelings for i celebrating her 18 bday with a huge party and she ask me to be part of her court. So during dance practices, her partner cant seem to lift her in one of the dances. So after dance practices she ask me to ptactice the lift so she can see it and i get it right on the first try without breaking a sweat. But she says she doesnt want to swich partners cuz she is in love with the other guy. Fast foward to her party. I learnd a whole new dance routine to surprised her with, i sang for her and did the whole court thing for her to try and show my true feelings for her, but she never realizes them. But her entire family seem to think other wise. Let move move mor foward shall we. Freshmen year of college: she has this big break up with her boyfriend and she calls me to come to her. So i drive my ass early in the morning to irvine, an hour away from where i live, to see her thinking this is my chance where she can realized i am the guy for her. So i see her and there was no words. We stared at eachother, then i opened my arms and she just sank in them. We held eachother so tight. And we made it a day for us. Come to find out that they got back together and i am heart broken. That summer i got an internship to work out of state, so i left. After 2 days in florida she sends me a link to her blog and she writes this huge page long thing about me say she was sorry she could not be at the airport to say goodbye. So toward the end of my internship i was asked if i would like to stay, and i told i would think about it. That same night i skype with the girl and tell her my good news. She is happy for me and during webchat i see her start to cry. I ask her why and she is just sad that i am stayin out there and that she doesnt want to be selfish and that i should come home for my family. I noticed that she didnt want to admit that she wanted me to comeback for her. So declined the offer came back home and the next time i saw her she was still with her boyfriend and left me disappointed and heart broken. Next year my friends, the girl and i take a trip to san diego. lets just say we all hPad too much to drink and me and the girl finally kiss. Next morning she doesnt remember. Heart broken again. Maybe a week or so after that we go to a market to buy alcohol for a party. As i am look ing on the shelf she comes from behind and just holds me. Just holding me as if she if she was in love. So she invites me to another party in her apartment. Come to find out i was there to scare this creeper and she tries to hook up with someother guy. Me being pissed off, i drink my ass off and ending up makin out with her roomate in front of her. As i ws leaving, bare in mind i was still pretty drunk, she tries to stop me and keeps yelling you are being unfair and never tells me how i am being unfair. So i end up leaving and i havent seen her since. Now to more recent stuff. My best friend introduces me to his girlfriends best friend. So we met a couple of time to the point where we start texting from morning to night. Then i thought i could be sweet and try talk to her in our language so i had my friend txt her in our language. Plan backfired and she gets pissed at me and tells me that she hates liars and we stop txt for a day or so. So christmas comes along and we final start txt again and she wants me to bring her food to her work and so i did and give her a christmas gift and she ask me to go to a christmas party with her. So we go to this party and we are having fun so we start holding hands and i can still remember the sing that was playing in the backround. It was brown eyes by destiny child. So as we leave the party she starts crying but i was told to leave her alone and everything will be ok. So next day she tells me everything and that she need space from. Long story short, she was just using me to make her ex get jealous and goes back with him. So do get what this rant is about? The reason guys act the way they do and catagorized like that is because of the women that make us that way. Players are not born, they are made. They are made from all the mistreated guys that women just use.

Medicine

I think its time i listen to my own advice. I keep saying that when people from our past come back into our lives, it is meant to show us what we have now and not what we loss. But i keep going in circles with these girls. I will find a moment where i realize that i am ok and that i dnt need them. Then i get a txt or a phone call from them saying they need me or they need to see me, and i will always go running back to them. Forgetting all that they did to me and i find myself back in the beginning. Them back together with the other guy and me tossed to the side again all alone. Alone with my thoughts of how things would have been different if i fought for them harder or if i was selfish enough to never let them go. I have to start listening to my own advice and try not go back to them and move on with my life and i have to realize that i am a good man and i deserve good things.

Somedays

There are somedays where I feel I am not where I should be. I see people I kno going to places where I want to go. I see people work in places where I want to be at. I see people earning a lot more than me. Everyday I feel as if I am slipping further and further away from my dreams.